Hope you are doing well

DeAr LoVe,

Hope you are doing well!

It's been some time, since I have seen you, touched you, felt you by my side or sensed you; even then you have been an integral part of my life. It is not like that if we haven't been in touch, you have been out of my mind. It is you and only you who is on my mind 24*7, but certain things can always be there but cannot be together. Strange yet true!

Since the day I loved you, you became the most important part of my life. I know the mornings were yours, the evenings were yours, the dreams were yours, the songs were yours and my every breath was yours and on the top I was yours; but you were never mine. You were a stress buster to me, you were the one who could make me smile anytime, you were the one with whom I shared every detail of my life, you were the one who made me realise how beautiful love can be, you made me realise that reality is better than the dreams which were always there and I knew ‘We’ will always stay together no matter what.
But then one day, reality struck my mind and I got to realise, what all we have been going through and what has been happening in the relationship. I won’t say that I don’t miss you; I miss you more than you can ever imagine and realise. I miss you at every instance when the words like smile, love, care, happiness, being together and what not are being said in front of me. I won’t say ever that I regret being with you, I regret loving you or I regret the memories we created, it’s just a simple sentence that I want to tell you, that is ‘I Miss You’!!
Isn’t it awkward, the person I knew so well is almost unknown to me today, but that is life! Sometimes I keep remembering you for the whole day, but then I know that is what I am left with. It is not the materialistic things that remind me of you, but the real memories do. Like your words, your actions and your style; though no one else can ever replace you in my life, but if I find someone who enacts things like you, the nostalgia begins.
Sometimes the poems, couplets, the talks, the random shit, the shayeri that we created, the place which was our favourite corner of the house, the place which still reminds me constantly of ‘US’ and because of which I know I might not survive in this house anymore. On an honest note, why I fell in love with you, if someone comes and asks me this then trust me I have no reasons for the same. The reasons came later, not for love but for the constant fights, constant craving for your time and attention and deliberate attempts to win your sight and your presence. I guess whatever happened was destined, and might be we get someone whom we will never bid adieu, but right now there is a void that cannot be fulfilled by anyone but you. My heart longs, not to get loved by you but to love you, not to get pampered but pamper you, not to get intimate with you but being wanted by you, not to go ahead and decide the future but to live the present with you,
All I want to hope with this letter is that I wish you’re in good health and spirits. I wish you find that love which I could never give you, and which you longed for; like since the beginning. I am sorry I could never be your perfect partner you desired for. But I know one thing for sure, you would surely remember me and our relationship, though it was a very short period of time, but I love calling it a relationship. The reason being, I know there were no commitments, no promises and no ifs and buts; but there was sheer love which I knew definitely was. Though it was for a very small period of time, but it evidently was there. I miss you and am sure sometime, just like once in a week or month, you also miss me; miss the chirpiness, the stupid girl I used to become when I am with you and the insanity that was there when you were around. I wish those days could come back and we be together as we were at a point of time. Trust me that would have been amazing, but the irony is that fate made us come along, stay together and fate has drifted us apart. Some memoirs are there to be cherished only, but not lived with!!

With deep love and true feelings!!

Yours today, tomorrow and forever!